Happy, Medium, Sad

I dont know about this pouty face she is pulling these days.  She has started to cry until she gets what she wants a little more lately...be it a toy, or food, or just to be held...at least she is getting the point across eh?

ordinary day...

Today was just an ordinary day, Marlee is army crawling quite fast these days.  She is fun to watch and also fun to play with...She is playing all kinds of games with us :)

A serious Moment...

So, Last night I had a dream that has stuck with me all day.  It was awful and full of real emotion.  Without diving into the gory details, In my dream Marlee had died.  It felt so real, and I was so devistated! I remember thinking I would do anything to get her back and that NOTHING else mattered.  I woke up in the middle of the night and just felt SICK!  It didnt help that Marlee slept so heavy that night and I couldnt hear her at all...so I turned the baby monitor up and made sure I could hear her breathing.  I immediately snuggled up to Darin as I tried to fall back asleep.

I have been thinking about my dream, and the way it made me feel all day.  Suddenly my ripped up couch, and cheap carpet don't bug me so much.  The fact that we have NO money to spend is fine, and the crying spells and tantrums are not bad at all :)

Darin and Marlee are the best things that ever happened to me, and I love them so much! We are so blessed to have our little family so healthy and strong.  I really couldn't be happier or more blessed :)  What a great life and a wonderful family I have!  I am guilty of sometimes wishing I did have a nicer couch or carpet and as awful as that dream was, it was a reminder of what really matters, and I definately HAVE it!

its not meant to be...

So have you ever wanted to do something and you keep trying and trying and trying to be good at it, and it keeps blowing up in your face?  Thats me and Sewing.  EVERYTIME I try to make something, Something goes wrong and I end up telling myself its better to just buy the things I really want, then to try to make...Because more often then not it costs just as much in materials and it is a headache and a half to do!  So as much as I have always wanted to unleash the inner craft in me, I think that is something I should just suppress for the rest of my life...

I am currently making a quilt...thats my headache right now...

Chubbs

I am assuming Marlee and I are around the same age here...since we both lack the ability to use our neck muscles... :)  This was the best I could do in finding a picture of us where we look remotely similar...The only similarities I see are elf ears, big heads, and chubby bods...haha and I LOVE it!

Phone Pictures...In no particular order

So I had to get a new phone and I decided I should probably look through my pictures and send a few to my email that I wanted to keep before My old phone got trashed...So here are the most random pictures that I took on my phone within the last 7 months....

Marlee's latest trick...standing in her crib!  There is a mirror directly across the room from her and she loves to look at herself standing up like a big girl (even though she can hardly see over the bars...bless her heart)

Cute little feet and legs...

She likes to sleep on her tummy these days..which makes for a long night on my part, because she wakes up on her belly and cant find her binki and just whines until i come and re-adjust her.

Meal time...Havent figured out how to keep things clean during...

I actaully really like the way she looks when she is sleeping...Look at that little Casper!

haha She will hate me later for these kind of pictures, but come on...gotta love that face

Rolling around as usual

This was the day we brought her home from the hospital with Grandma Bloom and Grandma Thomas... I cant believe she was ever that small!

Just hanging out

We went to the park in our sunhat.

She was still a little thing here...less than three months

That chunk there is me...and my skinny dad...I am not sure how old i was here but Marlee comes by her size honestly :)  Im pretty sure she has my ears too...

Dressing warm for winter

At one point Marlee would only roll from back to front via her left side...so at night we had to put a bumper there so she would not get stuck and cry for us...hehe it worked

Kisses!

I don't know if this is intentional but it sure seems like it!  Lately Marlee has been leaning in to my face and rubbing her wet drooly, slobbery mouth on my face and it definately comes across as sweet kisses.  Even though I have to wipe myself down afterwards I Love it!